me..me..me..

my life is so screwed up lately..

and i’m searching for sumthing..sumthing dat i could cling to…

so i..

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I’m feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I’m pissed cause you came around
Why don’t you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can’t help you fix yourself
You’re making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you’re drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I’m drunk and I’m feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn’t ever came around
Why don’t you just go home?
Cause you’re drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn’t understand
But you didn’t understand
Go fix yourself

I can’t help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can’t help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I don’t wanna lose you,
I don’t wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And i don’t wanna hate you
I don’t wanna take you
But i don’t wanna be the one to cry
That don’t really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool i keep losing my place
And i keep seeing you walk through that door

But there’s a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can’t trust
There’s a reason why people don’t stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain’t enough

Now i could never change you
I don’t wanna blame you
Baby you don’t have to take the fall
Yes i may have hurt you
But i did not desert you
Maybe i just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain

And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something’s gonna change

But there’s a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can’t trust
There’s a reason why people don’t stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain’t enough

I’ve been a bad, bad girl I’ve been careless with a delicate man

And it’s a sad sad world When a girl will break a boy

Just because she can Don’t you tell me to deny it I’ve done wrong and I want to

Suffer for my sins I’ve come to you ’cause I need Guidance to be true

And I just don’t know where I can begin What I need is a good defense ‘

Cause I’m feelin’ like a criminal And I need to be redeemed

To the one I’ve sinned against Because he’s all I ever knew of love

Heaven help me for the way I am Save me from these evil deeds

Before I get them done I know tomorrow brings the consequence

At hand But I keep livin’ this day like

The next will never come Oh help me but don’t tell me

To deny it I’ve got to cleanse myself Of all these lies till I’m good

Enough for him I’ve got a lot to lose and I’m Bettin’ high

So I’m beggin’ you before it ends Just tell me where to begin

What I need is a good defense

‘Cause I’m feelin’ like a criminal

And I need to be redeemed

To the one I’ve sinned against Because he’s all I ever knew of love

Let me know the way Before there’s hell to pay

Give me room to lay the law and let me go I’ve got to make a play

To make my lover stay S

o what would an angel say The devil wants to know

What I need is a good defense ‘Cause I’m feelin’ like a criminal

And I need to be redeemed To the one I’ve sinned against

Because he’s all I ever knew of love What I need is a good defense ‘

Cause I’m feelin’ like a criminal And I need to be redeemed

To the one I’ve sinned against Because he’s all I ever knew of love ..is it??????

life..

have u ever wake up one day and realize that the life u lead is not really the life u want exactly..??

i woke up one morning and realize that i have to change..so i did..

i know that to do this meaning, i have to sacrifice lots of things…

i gave up almost all..but..regret is not going to stand in my way..

my life is so messed up…i r e a l l y need to change!!!

i don’t want to be sumone else..

on the other hand i don’t want to be..me…

i’m turning over a new leaf…hopefully life will bring me sumthing different..

hope is all i need..