me..me..me..

yahoo!!!exam is FINALLY over..fuh,lega..hehe..i’m free!!!!!..for now la..YIPEE!!!!!

Listen as your day unfolds,
challenge what your future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted,
don’t be shamed to cry
You gotta be..

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold,
you gotta be wiser
You gotta hard, you gotta be tough,
you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,
you gotta stay together.
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day

Herald what your mother said
Read the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzle
in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
My oh my, you gotta be..

Time asks no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can’t stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning, can’t stop it if you tried to
The best part is danger staring you in the face

Got to be bad. Got to be bold
Got to be wise. Don’t ever be cold
Got to be hard. Not too, too hard
All I know is, love will save the day

yay!transaction in islamic law this wednesday is cancelled!!!yipee..!!i’m soooooooooo..happy!!!but still..torts n ils are waiting…darn!hehehe..

yipee..!!finally..dpt gak present yg ku tunggu2 selama ni..hehe..happy tak terkate..thank u, 2 U..=) dapat kasut tau..best sgt..dah lame usha that particular shoe..at last! never been so much happier..tapi yesterday was bitter sweet..so we decided to went out..dating la..janji kul 10.30am but he was as USUAL..LATE!mendidih rs hati..huh!then, to mkae things worse..we took the wrong bus!!tula..dah cakap that bus tak pegi uptown..but no,degil!!see??wut have u done??arrghh..menggelegak hati ku..so i launched mogok..mogok tak nak cakap..hihii..tapi mane lah leh tahan tak cakap lame2..then when he said that he wanted to buy me a gift..wah,,serta merta la my mood jd ok..wakakaka..hehe..tetiba je terasa mcm iklan kat tv tu..”i sayang u lebih la..”..so at the end,it was a happy ending la..syukur!but still..the thoughts of those exams make me nervous..mak!!!tolong!!tak study lagi…people,PLZZZ..pray for me..today spm result kluar kan..hmm..i remebered when it was my time..torture!!but..what can i sya,what can i do..everybody has to go through it kan??so..to my cousin ain n adibah..wishing u the best..n plz try not to cry like i did..huehue..

actually,i’m waiting for my sis to pick me up ni..lambat nyer..i’m hungry plak tu..huu..=(..teringat kt my mom’s cooiking..=9 yummuy!!tapi mak pergi rombongan..huu..just got back from the halaqah talk..boring..i can’t help to fall asleep..hehe..naughty me..mesti buruk muke..kehkehkeh..kinda guilty rasa nya..but i just can’t help it..hehe..i was supposed to go out today..dating ler..hehe..but everything pun sibuk jek nak happen today…this talk la..ad futsal la..n then my sis plak nak ajak gi subang..visits her officemate yg br bersalin..hmm..pegi jela..my dearie cousin azhani is coming!!can’t wait to see her..dah lamer giler tak jumpe..miss her so much..lets talk baout my bufday plak la..hehe..did received al lot of wishes..thanx u all!!n i received this one particular msg..an unexpected msg..but i’m glad i did received it..i sun know whether u read my blogs but if u do,n u know who u r..thank u very much..the msg means a whole lot to me..somehow it resembles that we r ok…well, there were gifts..yay!hehe..but i’m still waiting 4 that one particular gift..bile la nak kasi..hmm..ade ke tak ni??hmm..we’ll see..u know wut??the other day..2 days in a row actually..there wa this guy sibuk2 kacau me..pakai fon..ntah2 sape2 la..thought of investigating..hehe..mane tau..rezeki..hihi..(gurau jek..) but my roomie came up with this disturbing speculation..ad ke patut die kate ntah2 mamat yg call tu pakcik tue yg dah berbini!!huh..patah semangat..geli geleman rasa nyer..kikikiki..serves me rite pun..=)..mana la akak aku nih??well..hopefully mamat tu dah tak kacau lg la..

finally..its my BIRTHDAY!!!but so far it hadn’t feel like it’s my birthday pun..ari ni schedule penuh..klas direct from morning to afternoon..but i had agreat lunch!mee curry kt aikol cafe..(@suke2) is sooo delicious!!sedap bangat seh..nak promote!!hehe..susah nak dpt mee curry yg sedap apart from my mom’s cooking ler..hehehhe..thanx 2 all my dearest friend yang wish for my burfday..ingat yek korang..so..what is it like being 19?..a year older?…feels..nothing! the feeling is almost the same every year..maybe i’ll try my luck when i’m turning 21..mase tu best kot??we’ll see..hehe..anyway today so far is just..normal..yup!that’s the most suitable word..normal..but hey,birthday is just a birthday rite..i’m missing my dad..(semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat..amin) and..i can’t wait to go home patang nih!!yay!tak sabar nak tgk mak masak aper..hihi..keje makan jek aku nih..tu sbb makin dipam2..wakaka..tp in order 2 get back pun kena menempuh 1 more cabaran besar..wanna know??long que nak naik bus putra n nak tunggu bus tu sampai..berkurun ma!dah la beratur kalahkan que nak beli ticket concert..fuh!tapi..nak wat camne..nak blk punye psl..kekkeekee..if there’s one thing dat i could ask 4..i would ask for all of you(s) out there..PRAY 4 ME!!(^-^) 9th of march is still not over yet..so..yang penting kite NJOY!..=)

today is juat so..can’t actually find a word that suits lah..bad??not exactly..today is just not my lucky day i guess..hehe..i woke with this massive headache…tak pegi tutorial class sbb tak finish the work..muahaha..then,balik from class i’ve found out that my tabung mickey mouse yg comel tu kena pecah!!!damn la..sape la punye keje..tak halal dunia akhirat tau!!dah la tu..makan harta anak yatim..huhu!neway..i’m looking foward for tonite..hihihi..n this weekend too..but lately asyik stress jela..maybe its bcoz of the final xm..just round the corner..next week would be a "hell" week i guess..3 tests in a row..adoi..sakit tul..but still tak insaf2 lagi nih..fara,bile nyer kite betul2 nak insaf nih??hmm..maybe after turning 19??we’ll see..kikikiki..(^-^)

one more day n i’m no longer 18..waa..(^o^)..hehhee..it’s nothing actually..just numbers kn??kn??hehe..neway,lookin foward to be 19..but still..aku blum 20!!hahaha..tak tue macam farah!!jgn mara yer fara…(*-*)

i’m bitter inside..yup!dats wut i feel…xm is just roud the corner..life is a mess!ntah bile nk insaf pu tak tau la..i’m bitter coz i’m being shadowed by GUILT..i feel guilty though i wasn’t the one who had created all this mess..but i’m such a moron..konon baik…so i feel guilty..at the same time i wonder bukan salah aku so y should i feel guilty??i’m the 1 yg patut rs angry..rs dikhainaiti..rs as if i was being stabbed fron the back..can’t trust anyone these days..all r liars!!!but still i forgive n TRY 2 forget..takpe la..they tak salah..bulls***..i hate those who do things behind my back..but still it happens to me..but then all i want is a normal life but heck!nobody can have a normal life in this world..am i guilty for missing the person that i love although he is gone??am i guilty for loving sumone who is being loved by sumone else??am i guilty for being the person that i am??don’t u all know dat it hurts me so much inside??don’t u care at all??sume mengaku diri masing2 mngsa keadaan..aku mngsa keadaan..die mangsa keadaan..KAU mngsa keadaan..so who’s to blame here??jgn jd HIPOKRIT la..u can’t really please everyone of us..not even urself!!y should we blame others when we,ourselves pun tak pernah nk reflect diri sendiri..y can’t we just accept the truth..those which r fated..TAKDIR n not to blame anyone..same sex or the opposite..i..blame myself for everything..even if i knoe it is not my fault..wanna know y??bcoz i dun want 2 be selfish..jd HIPOKRIT..if sume nk salah kn org lain then who will take the all blame??U TELL ME!!

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